Hey y’all!🤗
Honestly, it pissed me off when I heard these words. They just rolled off the tongue of one of my spiritual advisors so matter of factly. Incredulous, I thought. And they even hurt my feelings.
#stoptalking
Yep, so there’s more new incoming information during this stage of my journey. Another shocking revelation.
God is not sentimental.
Read that statement one more time.
My spirit, that part of me joined to God, resonated with the statement. Although an internal battle ensued. For month’s now I have experienced painful and gut wrenching wrestling over this statement. It has been similar to the wrestling described in scripture between Jacob and the Spirit of God for me.
And the Lord said, “…I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.”
Exodus 33:19
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.
Isaiah 55:8
Y’all I lived most of my 57 years…wait who am I kidding, all of my 57 years being governed by my feelings. Feelings are not bad. They bring color and darkness to life, though I’ve learned, and accepted that they will lie to me.
Seriously, they will betray me.
#spiritualhealth
I’m still in the process of transitioning this knowledge into my life despite my personally packaged box of beliefs and understanding I have used to define God. It’s a messy process y’all. I’m over here having a tantrum similar to any 2 year old.
#youarenotalone
OK, now let’s get a definition of the word sentimental, so that we can attempt to wrap our understanding around such a statement about God.
-marked or governed by feeling, sensibility, or emotional idealism.
-resulting from feeling rather than reason or thought.
Ah ha. Reason or thought rather than feelings is the goal? Now this revelation is a game changer. And freedom. So feelings don’t have to control my thoughts, influence my actions, or be the reason I follow my heart?
Emotions are the voice of the heart - Chip Dodd
The heart is the source of emotions - John Eldredge
The heart does not equate emotions - John Eldredge
Even now, having this spiritual knowledge, there’s absolutely no way I can accept and apply this revelation without asking Jesus to change my thinking and my understanding by giving me the wisdom to discern the lies of feelings. Willpower will only get me so far. And it’s not that far.
It is the powerful work of the Holy Spirit that is life changing.
It is mysterious.
It is messy.
It is worth it.
I know because He has changed many of the lies over to truth in my thoughts and my life.
#spiritualjourney
Oh heck y’all, I still battle internally and with others, but it is worth the battle to gain the freedom from being bound by my personal box of beliefs, protections and understandings created by my feelings. I am living far more alive than ever.
You have the same opportunity, so will you consider allowing Him to change your beliefs and understanding of who He Is?
#youmatter